My Heart is Breaking

He will leave on Thursday, my birthday. That is the plan, it could change and be earlier--who knows. I really hate this, I don't want him to go. I really do have peace about this situation, I can't ignore how excited his family is for him, his father's tears, his grandfather's support. If Little Guy was going home to his mom, I would be very upset. I really think every situation is unique. Some parents deserve another chance, some do not. Family is usually best for the child, sometimes it is not. It is best for Little Guy. There really is no suitable family for Lovebug. Lovebug's mom deserves another chance, Little Guy's does not. This is the most frustrating because with the many adults assigned to each child, someone should have a clue as to what is best. The social worker turn over is tremendous in our county. In turn it affects the decisions made for the kids. Addressing the reasons for such a high turnover would be the first step in bettering our social problems. Little Guy's worker left, and no one was there to take her place. The supervisor did nothing. The family should have had Little Guy months ago. That's the ugly truth. We were lead to believe that no one wanted him. If he would have been adopted, it would have been reversed. We were highly mislead, but we are not bitter. I'm glad it was found out now, not later. The truth is, there are children every day who are abused and neglected. They need a safe home. We are a safe home. We cannot sit around saying 'poor us' because of what happened with Little Guy. We keep moving forward because that is where life lead us, forward. I am sad, I cry spontaneously, I see him doing stuff 'for the last time'. It's difficult but not impossible. I am very concerned for my own children. They are visibly upset over this and I don't want them to have ill feelings toward foster care. We are dealing with it as it comes. This will be a very difficult week.