Talk about a LOOOOOONG break....

Hello Everyone!
I'm checking in and seeing how the blogging world has been turning. So a little update...Our baby girl is OURS. She is 3 and her adoption was final at 18 months. We changed her name at adoption. Our wonderful little boys we had are in a perfectly matched home for them. God has answered our prayers and everything has really worked out perfectly. You wouldn't know it by reading the ups and downs though. Which is the wonderful thing about blogging, you remember the frustration and desperation of the moment. Then you can even see it all work out wonderfully. Or not. Sometimes it doesn't work out like you want. We have had lots of life changes for our family and now are deciding where to go next. We haven't had a foster placement in a year. Actually we had one placement that lasted 1 week. So what do we do....to re-certify or not. That is the question.
Reasons to not:
We are super behind on classes
I get tired of the constant intrusion of social workers in my home
We are really busy with our own children (football, teenagers with jobs!)
I'm tired
I'm lazy and selfish (aren't we all? LOL)
I am homeschooling!!! Yes we are homeschooling 1 child only but I LOVE it.
I'm still trying to get my photography business to work...ugh!

Reasons to re-certify:
I love it
I love it
I love it
I love it
My kids love it
My husband....thinks I'm crazy (heehee)
I could just only take 1, then they will just fit in with the other 4 less noticably
I hate not having the 'option' to take another.
I feel like it's the right thing to do.
I don't know.

So I'm torn. My husband said he would be ok to quit now (lol, he makes me laugh). So it's really up to me. If I say let's just keep our license for now, he would be on board. I even said yes to a placement call yesterday and he was fine with it. We weren't picked, it was a toss up between us and another family.
Has anyone been there done that????

If we do renew...I'm limiting myself to 1 child. Preferably younger than 3.
But I'm really really really torn. I've been praying about it. I got that call yesterday. ????? Honestly, there are no good reasons to renew, unless you are the child that comes to our home. Then there is a good reason. This is hard.