Feeling Drained-Emotionally

I like to abide by the rules, I like the idea of fairness and justice, I foolishly believe in these things. Sometimes you get a glimpse into the ugly, unfair, and unjust rules of the game. It's many opinions and powerplays. It's the reality of our social system, the one that claims to be in the best interest of the children. There are wonderful social workers, great judges, parents who have been helped and want their children, quality foster homes, and wonderful families--they do exist in this mess. If not, it would be much worse. It's easier to quietly turn our back, let our license expire, slip back into our routine with our own children--oblivious to what we know is true. I have been tempted, I must admit. I pray more now than I have in a long, long time. God doesn't ask the same of every person. Every person has their passion, their own desires. This is mine. Often time people think that following God's will will bring them easy street. This is untrue. Often times doing what is right is very hard. Self sacrifice, pain, unfairness are all part of life. We are sticking with it, but sometimes I can't see the good. The good I see is the individual children that are safe in our home. Maybe I should realize that the Little Children that God loves so much is who I am answering to.