Court is coming

We are not for sure what is going to happen at court. We will either get legal custody or who knows. I'm so nervous. I feel like I can't relax until we have her. We will see. Lovebug's mom is so supportive of me! It's so strange, it's almost as if she has passed her on to me in her own way. I never expected to become so caring toward the birth mom. It's wonderful. I think about my unsatisfied heart, the yearning and longing for a baby girl. Afraid to say it out loud how much I wanted her for fear of never getting her. Not wanting to look and sound crazy because fostering had such a pull in my heart. Keeping my desires and excitement to myself to protect myself from ridicule. Knowing I was in God's will, but unable to trust that fully to share. I am humbled. Once again God has showed me how much He can provide for us, for Lovebug, and for the desires of our hearts. I am proud to say that Lovebug is an answer to prayer, part of God's plan, our little baby girl, our baby sister. To say I feel unworthy is putting it mildly. I am not worthy to parent the children God has given us. I am so blessed to have each of them. Lovebug brings all of us joy, she is a Daddy's girl and her Daddy is crazy about her. She lights up at the sight of her brothers and squeals with delight when they play with her. We will be forever grateful to her mom for giving her life and giving her to us. Now, praying for God's will in court...