Reflection

As I grab my laptop for a quick post while my babies are napping, I am overcome with joy. I am so busy that I don't have time to blog, or do anything else really. I am lucky to shower or even eat. My laundry has exploded, and I had to boot out my little doggie because I needed a break (don't worry, she is on vacation in Florida with my mom-being spoiled). I know the pain of waiting and wondering of when you will finally get a child. The unknowns, the range of ages, the circumstances, the abuse, the birth parents, the judge, the social workers, your own family. All these things run through your mind, you never tire of listening to other's stories of adoption. You look at baby stuff, toddler stuff, and wonder how old your child will be, boy or girl. It's a state of limbo. Then it happens, and it happens fast and without warning. Just like everyone told you it would.



Adoption was put in my heart October 2007. Not my husbands, just mine. I mostly kept it to myself but started researching everything adoption. December 2007 I realized it wasn't a 'phase', either I was crazy or God was telling me something. January 2008 foster care weighed heavily in my heart, by now I was telling my husband and we would discuss having another child. We researched IVF, vas reversals, and adoption--he was on board. Ethiopia was beginning to boom and I was drawn to it. I couldn't decide on an agency, they all had 'problems' that I couldn't jump over. Now I see that as part of the plan, if we had signed with an agency--we would not have done foster. Months past as we researched and finally we decided to foster and foster adopt. Every where we turned, the foster care system was the answer--even with all it's flaws. May 16 my niece was born, as we all celebrated I was sure I wanted more children. We decided in May to pursue foster licensing. June 2008 it all began---Licensed in January 2009--First placement Feb 2009, second placement 3 weeks later. Our little boy was born May 2008, the same month we decided to begin foster care. Even though I wished everything to go much faster, God knew the right timing. He knew what day both these babies would be delivered to us, and he spent all that time preparing me. It all started with a desire in my heart, that I believe God put there to begin with.