Out of the Loop, or just plain LOOPY?!?!

That would be me, I'm just loopy. Actually, as my husband puts it- I'm in La La Land. Little does he know, La La Land keeps me sane. I prefer to say that "I'm so busy and torn into so many different directions and doing fifty things at once that I don't have time to pay attention to my surroundings or answer every question right away because my brain can't process everything at once". So it may appear that I'm in La La Land, but really I'm on a break.

I am finally better, almost. I have a 'nasty' (as the doc put it) ear infection that has had my ear ringing for 5 days now and clogged for 3 weeks. I'm not complain' though, it's been very funny to say 'huh' fifty-million times instead of repeating sentences fifty-million times.

Our babies are so awesome!! I cannot believe we have them, I am so in love with them. We want them forever. Reality? I don't want to think about it. I'm afraid baby girl will go home. It's like a classic case of children who are sent home only to be removed later in horrible condition. Little Guy? I hope I'm not jinxing myself, BUT, I think we may get to keep him. His mom is MIA and is a drug addict who refuses help. Little Guy is making LEAPS and BOUNDS when it comes to his development. He is so smart, cute, and amazing. He is almost ready to walk!! He gives hugs, he puts his arms up to be held, and......drumroll please.......he refuses strangers!!!!!! He will cling to me lightly and has to be given over. That is huge for attachment reasons! I am so happy.

Tomorrow is a baby girl mama and dad visit. I love that baby so much, I will be very upset if she leaves us. Baby girl is super sick. She has a cold, but it's a bad one. I think it's the same one I had, poor baby. I even took her to the ER because I was so worried. The doc said she will be fine, but he isn't up all night holding her in an upright position to keep her from choking on her snot!!! She will be 6 weeks old tomorrow----I can't believe it.

We take Little Guy to a neurologist about the possible seizure. I hope he didn't really have one. I pray his little brain is just fine. I'm so worried about him, and I get so angry knowing what he went through before and after he was born.

Our kids. They are so great, we really have such great boys. They are crazy, lazy, messy, stinky, and eat too much. It's really funny, but can be obnoxious!!! It's just very strange having a teenager and pre-teen. I was a very young mom when I had my first two, and now I'm a young mom of teenagers. They are so sweet, boys are really the sweetest. Our baby (who is 9) is spoiled rotten. I mean a disaster--lol!!! He loves having these babies around, and the biggest perk is being able to play with the baby toys. So it's no surprise to see him zooming around on the pooh bear push ride toy, in the playpen with Little Guy, in the crib with Little Guy, or in the exersaucer. Yes, he climbed in the exersaucer today, I am still laughing about it. Long legged boy is in the baby toy. I made him get out so he wouldn't break it. He is a little 9 yr old, thank goodness. See what I mean about him being our 'baby'? Everything he does is just funny. All the boys help me with these babies, I love to watch them being kind and understanding.

I know this is a horrible long post, I am so glad to be back and writing!!!! Now I swear I can hear someone in the kitchen, probably the teen sneaking food!!!!! Guess I'll go put a stop to that and hopefully get to bed.