Getting Nervous

Okay, so I have been on the defensive lately. I am sensitive to judgement passed on us for our decision to foster. I am trying really hard to lighten up. I need to. I realize that others will not understand, and that's okay. It doesn't change our decision or our family. It doesn't matter. If I am being honest with myself, then I will realize that I have my own doubts. I am nervous about getting a baby. My life is crazy with my boys, but it's adjusted right now. A baby will mean less sleep and more work. I am aware of that, and sometimes I wonder if I am insane! Then I listen to my heart. I am here to nurture and love my children. It isn't always easy, parenting is really hard. I am jumping in with two feet and know it!